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First off, I don’t expect anything from doing this. I have no expectations that anyone will even want to read this or follow me. I really don’t care because I am mostly doing this for me.

I like to think of myself as a caged butterfly, an artist with too big of an imagination that it’s almost impossible to put it to paper. I love to write novels, short stories and poetry. I also like to paint and draw. My creative mind longs to be freed.

Within this blog, I shall post my inner most thoughts and works. I will be unashamed to put my work out there and I will post it with pride.

If you like it? Follow it.

Hate it? Ignore it.

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Welcome to my life.

“These Are a Few of my Favorite Things: 5 of my favorite novels I’d recommend in a heartbeat. 

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Slammerkin by Emma Donoghue.

This novel is my all time favorite for many reasons. It’s got everything I look for in a novel! Sex, murder, intrigue… it’s not a happy story,  then again I love to read and write unhappy things.

Our main character, Mary is not likable and that’s what I love about her. She’s constantly messing up even when she has a light at the end of the tunnel and a chance to redeem herself. Mary is so young when the events of the novel take place and one could attribute her troubles to her age but in truth, she is an arrogant, greedy girl.

The novel is set in London and on the outskirts of the city. It discusses prostitution and the struggles of the lower class.

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The Wideacre Trilogy by Philippa Gregory.

Move over The Other Boleyn Girl, Gregory’s debut novel is one to pick up and not miss!

As with Slammerkin, the wiseacre trilogy discusses sensitive subjects such as incest, murder, and the occult. It’s a fabulously told tale which keeps you on the edge of your seat. The main character is Beatrice Lacey and once again we have an unlovable protagonist. She’s greedy and vain yet you can’t stop reading. Beatrice, like Mary from slammerkin, had a chance to redeem herself but she does not and only continues her behavior.

This leads to a series of events crashing down around herself and others. It’s a great read and if you can stomach raunchy incest sex scenes then it’s definitely worth your time.

 

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Leonardo’s Swans by Karen Essex

This novel was one I picked up on a whim and ended up loving. The two women featured, Isabella and Beatrice are as different as two sisters can be. Their rivalry is marked by marriage and although the sisters both make great marriages there is more to be had. Jealousy, adultery, love and more fill the pages of this historical fiction novel.

 

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Cleopatra’s Daughter Series by  Stephanie Dray

This series surprised me a lot. At first, I thought it a young adult book but by the time I got to the third novel I was definitely convinced it was not.

Octavian’s obsession with Selene is the center I would say of the novel. There is so much sexual tension between them and to some, this could be a trigger as she is so young.

I believe it is a great series and for those who love Cleopatra, this insight into her daughter is worth the read!

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The Borgia Bride by Jeanne Kalogridis

If you know anything about the Borgias you know that a novel about them will be raunchy as hell and fun to read. In this novel, our main character is Sancha of Aragon. Most books I have read are from Lucrezia’s perspective so this was a breath of fresh air. I enjoyed her loveless marriage to Joffre and affair with Cesare. Sancha has relations with all three brothers. In real life, this was said to be true.

This novel has a lot of sex. Rape and underage included. It contains boatloads of adultery and murder so definitely not for the faint of heart. I think I finished it in a day. It’s a pretty quick read which keeps you interested the whole time cause you feel like you need to continue to the end of this fascinating woman’s life.

 

 

Honorable Mentions

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The Wise Woman By Philippa Gregory

A riveting tale of witchcraft and lust…

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Duchess of Milan By Michael Ennis

Cousin rivalry, sexual intrigue and more…

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Empress of Rome Series By Kate Quinn

Ancient Rome at its finest with corrupt Emperors…

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Diaries of the Family Dracula By Jeanne Kalogridis

The story behind the Dracula family descendants.

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The Lost Queen By Norah Lofts

George III’s sister Caroline and her disastrous marriage to Christain of Denmark.

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The Prince and the Quakeress By Jean Plaidy

George III and Hannah Lightfoot. A person favorite and basis for what I wrote my novel on.

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The Russian Concubine series By Kate Furnivall

A Russian woman and Chinese man fall hopelessly in love despite the events going on around them.

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Empress Orchid and The Last Empress by Anchee Min

Cixi from minor concubine to Empress…

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Four Sisters All Queens by Sherry Jones

The four sisters of Provance have their voices heard in this gripping novel…

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The Dark Queen Series by Susan Carroll

Catherine de Medici and her flying squad of witchcraft and poison center around this long series of sisters.

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Roma by Steven Saylor

Short story collection of Roman families from the start to the fall…

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Nefertiti by Michelle Moran

The beautiful Egyptian queen comes to life…

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Katherine by Anya Seton

Mistress and wife?

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The Red Tent by Anita Diamant

An exciting biblical refering novel about Dinah, daughter of Jacob and Leah.

The King’s Secret Daughter sequel coming soon…

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Well, I’ve finished it! The first draft that is so yes a long way to go still. I’ll be editing for the next month or so and finalizing the story. All 400 pages of Anna and the plantation. We have some old characters as well as new.

Cover and title coming soon as well as a Goodreads page.

Blurb so far:

When a ghost from Anna’s past with ties to England pays her a visit, the perfect world which she has found comes crashing down. As she struggles to come to terms with her new reality, problems arise within the family when the plantation becomes a center of wealth. Anna finds herself once more thrown into high society but soon is forced to make a decision which could threaten to unravel everything she and her family have accomplished.

Coming soon!!

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Childcare in America: a nation most lacking in keeping families together. 

I never really paid attention to the lack of respect and flexibility the United States has towards pregnant women and children until I myself went through pregnancy and had children.

First off, when I became pregnant with my daughter I was working. During this time, as soon as my boss found out about my pregnancy, I was treated very differently. Not only would he tag on impossible tasks but he would also make snide comments about how my sex life was ruined and I’ll never be able to satisfy my husband now.

Turns out I couldn’t do much about this cause his wife worked in Human Resources, but I was able to look past the comments and did my job as I prepared for my daughter.

In July of 2015, my blood pressure spiked and I had to stop working due to a high-risk pregnancy. I did not get maternity leave. Turns out you have to be at a job for a year to qualify for maternity leave….

I was fired from my job for not returning to work two weeks after giving birth. This should have been illegal right? Wrong. The unemployment office refused me help and stated that I quit. I did not quit it was never once uttered.

In the United States, maternity leave is at most 12 weeks without pay. In other countries, it can be up to a year with pay and the husband gets time off also. These countries recognize the crucial need for a parent to bond with their child. Family life comes first. Here we are so into the everyday busy schedules that we forget the importance of relationships. No wonder we have children hating their parents and divorce rate is at an all-time high.

We drop our babies off with strangers at six weeks because we have no choice. After getting fired I looked for jobs but no one wanted to hire a woman who had a small baby. We struggled with money and barely made ends meet. I as depressed about losing my job and my husband and I began to argue constantly.

This which the United States government regulations have concerning childcare and maternity rights are downright appalling.

I am considering going back to work and currently looking for childcare. I am not blessed to have family close by so this is my only option. So far I’ve found the lowest to hr close to $800 monthly. That’s almost as much as my rent.

Currently, I have joined a gym which helps me with interacting with others. I enjoy working out but the only downside once again is childcare. I pay $40 a month for it on top of my $40 membership fee and they don’t even change my daughter nor have an appropriate place to dispose of diapers and insist you take the dirty diaper with you.

It almost seems to me that America frowns upon children. That they are almost an inconvenience. In interviews, I stated I have a daughter. Immediately the mood changes and rarely will I hear back from them. I go to a restaurant and my daughter cries. I get snide remarks and glares.

I suppose, in conclusion, I am trying to state that the family unit is important. I feel as if this message has been lost somewhere throughout the decades and it needs to be changed. The rest of the world makes us seem way behind in this department and I believe that if something does not change soon, the problem will only get worse.

 

Just a Small Town Girl: An awaited prequel due soon.

 

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Read here —–> https://www.amazon.com/Shes-Only-Seventeen-Novel-Drugs-ebook/dp/B01LXTMF8S/ref=tmm_kin_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr=

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I have had many people ask me when I am releasing the prequel to She’s Only Seventeen. Honestly, I have worked on it some and it’s about 99% finished but I’m just working on the extra push to finish it up.

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As with its sequel, Just a Small Town Girl will feature controversial subjects such as heavy drug use and sex. Where it’s sequel focuses on sex as a way to communicate, this novel will feature heavy and graphic drug use. It will show the effects of constant drug use and how dangerous it can be. We have rock stars from the sixties and seventies so adultery is present also.

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Within this novel, we meet Pete and Charlotte Crowne who are only mentioned in the sequel as being Kat’s parents. They are both dead before 1980 when the novel begins with Kat at thirteen.

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Pete is your typical bad boy and Charlotte a small town girl. Hence the title. Pete’s in a band and he is a drummer and Charlotte is a good old church girl. They fall in love and Charlotte marries Pete and moves with him and becomes a rock star’s wife. Pretty typical right? Wrong.

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Charlotte’s a tough Mississippi girl who finds herself in the big Apple. She makes friends and enemies as she observes her husband and his band mates get high. Charlotte does not condone drug use but she finds a friend eventually although brief.

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We know from the sequel that Pete commits suicide but what gets him to this point? We also know that Charlotte kills herself right before the events of She’s Only Seventeen.  Five years after Pete so many unanswered questions.

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I’m hoping to release the novel in November so keep an eye out. Cover art has already been released and will post links as soon as it does go on sale.

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“The Deep and Timeless Sea” A lifelong obsession with the ocean and all things to do with it. 

*Spoilers*

Obviously 

Read here —–> https://www.amazon.com/dp/B06XYVL6T5

 

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While writing The King’s Secret Daughter I debated heavily on the role of the ocean and Jack Smith. At first, I thought to do the two as two separate stories but then Part Two was born. I wanted my readers to understand that the American Revolution was fought on both land and sea and that the battles on the water were just as important and strategically rough as those on land. The role that Jack Smith and the Century plays is one similar to John Paul Jones. A famous revolutionary war captain.

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To understand why I chose the sea as part two I suppose we have to go back to the beginning and where my obsession for the ocean first stemmed from: I was raised the daughter of a man who was in the Navy and so the sea was already within my blood. All my life I was positioned close to the water and within proximity of nautical history. Both the Navy base and the mystic seaport provided me with valuable information which would stick with me for a lifetime. My young brain absorbed the information about vessels in and on the ocean, eventually graduating to an obsession with sharks and other creatures of the deep.

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My shark obsession was short but sweet. I got made fun of a lot as I poured over books of different type of sharks. My favorite was learning about shark attacks and then finding sharks in sunken ships. It was at this point my interest took a turn elsewhere…

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When Titanic came out I wanted to see it badly. When I did, my obsession for ocean liners grew to an all-time high. I became obsessed with the study of these magnificent floating palaces, devoting every Robert Ballard book in my school’s library. I was fascinated by how they were made down to many of their intimate endings on the ocean floor and how their mass capacity caused great loss of life.

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From ocean liners came the world of tall ships. Around this time I recall the local seaport doing a special on the Amistad. While visiting, I re-entered the world of whaling upon the Charles W Morgan and from there came curiosity on tall ships. I began to dig into whaling ships to war ships and finally… pirate ships.

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I cannot give all credit to Pirates of the Caribbean but my mind  waundered to new and mysterious ways while watching and researching the film. I fell in love with life at sea and, possibly Jack Sparrow, but that the girl in me always loving those bad boys. This led right into my adult career when I began working for Real Pirates.

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I suppose my enthusiasm and love for the subject is that got me the manager position, but this job was honestly my favorite and it brought me from Connecticut to Texas. I so loved being around the cannons and artifacts. It was a dream come true and to this day I wished it had been permanent.

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After the pirate exhibition ended I did a number of other jobs including the librarian. It was then that the idea for The King’s Secret Daughter came to light. I began the novel back in 2008 but dropped it entirely, leaving notes and scrambled papers. I began some more notes in 2014 but dropped the project again when my daughter was born. She’s Only Seventeen took the main road and was published in 2016.

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In January of 2017, I sat down and reviewed the notes to The King’s Secret Daughter. It was then a lightbulb went off in my head and I began writing only to stop six weeks later after 340 pages and 70,000 words were born. A cover was created and my novel was finished.

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The characters on board The Century are based on a number of historical and fictional sea characters. I studied relentlessly the parts of a war ship from the 1780s down to names and features. I researched roles and finally found my footing on who and what part two would consist of. The contrast which part two brings to the novel is striking. We have land and sea.  Anna comments on the beauty of the sea but misses land. Jack lives and breathes the sea which is strongly evident in his excitement during battle and needs to get off the island as soon as possible.

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Anna’s life upon the ship is marked by tragedy. The loss of life within battles and storms was common. The scene where Jack does a burial service for the fallen is taken straight from real life. The prayer he serves was a common one. I changed a few words to make it more understandable for readers. The way the dead were buried is taken straight from an eye wilt was account. The last stitch through the nose was actually a common procedure and can be found in both our history books and movies.

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I’ve begun a sequel to this novel but sadly no more sea scenes. That’s not to say we won’t see anyone from the Century again but that’s for me to know only. When I am done with this, the prequel to she’s only seventeen will be released and then possibly I will work on my time travel romance.

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I have debated a pirate story since my love of the ocean has reached their but so much has been done on the subject already. I have ways of placing my own marking and twists in the story but it’s so overdone.

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If anyone of my readers actually read this I’d love some input. A pirate story, yea or nay? Would y’all like more ocean themed books?

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I guess we will see what the future holds but one matter will forever remain unchanging. My love for the sea and all things to do with it.

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Thomas V.S. Shane  (From “She’s Only Seventeen”

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Read here —–> https://www.amazon.com/Shes-Only-Seventeen-Novel-Drugs-ebook/dp/B01LXTMF8S/ref=tmm_kin_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr=

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In my novel She’s Only Seventeen, Kat Crowne is loved by two very different men. Who rule her choices throughout the novel. Although she dates others and cares for them, only Shane and Thomas are the ones who make the largest mark. In this segment, we will discuss and analyze the differences and similarities between the two men and why each was right for Kat.

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Thomas is introduced first so let’s start with him. He is described as a rebel when Kat first meets him and she instantly finds him attractive with his piercing blue eyes and ebony hair. Thomas plays guitar and it is his only comfort at the boarding school till he meets Kat. He is an orphan but was left with money from his late parents which he uses to begin Neptune. Thomas convinces Kat to join the band and she does. It is then that he begins to fall in love with her.

Soon the band grows and Neptune is invited to tour with Arctic Circle. Before they go on tour, Thomas and Kat sleep together for the first time because they are embarrassed they are both virgins heading on tour. This marks the beginning of their lifelong struggle of passion for one another. Kat begins to date Drew,  but she soon finds herself without him after the tour. She moves onto Gary and then James as a jealous Thomas observes her. When they go back on tour with Arctic Circle, Kat gets back together with Drew. It is then that she sleeps with Thomas again.

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Kat and Drew break up and she is with Shane. During this time she realizes she loves Thomas but is pregnant by Shane. She married him, ending her relations with Thomas. As Kat and Shane’s relationship falls apart, Thomas and Kat grow closer. Shane and Kat divorce as Thomas and Kat begin an affair with her new boyfriend Brian’s back. Soon it comes to a climax and Kat agrees finally to be with only Thomas.

 This is all well and good until Kat sleeps with Shane. Thomas forgives her but grows increasingly frustrated with her and jealous of Shane. Thomas wants to marry Kat but she refuses. On the night of his death, he plans to ask her one more time but doesn’t get the chance. He does, however, marry her in the hospital. Thomas dies that night leaving Kat a widow. She is upset beyond repair and starves herself. Her love for Thomas is stronger than anyone else in the book and she is never the same afterward.

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Thomas is Kats opposite in many ways yet they are so very much alike. He serves as her soulmate and although she doesn’t realize it till it is too late, she never forgets him. Thomas proves to be almost obsessive towards her at times while at others he can drop her like a fly and not speak with her for months at a time. He stands a firm ground against her and challenges her in ways she hates. The pair compliment each other well as they both have a high sex drive. Thomas can control Kats drug and alcohol use but also will play along with her when she feels frisky and adventurous.

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Shane’s character differs very much from Thomas. Shane is part of Arctic Circle and close to ten years older than Kat. He falls hopelessly in love with her on their second tour together and married her. He knows about her and Thomas and tries to end things but decided against it when he finds Kat is pregnant. Their relationship never recovers after Kat cheats on him with Drew and becomes pregnant. They are all unsure if she is pregnant by Drew or Shane. Shane accused Kat of cheating on him with Brian and they divorce. It is then he finds out that the baby was his causing him to reconnect with her briefly after the divorce but then Kat dates Thomas.

Shane grows increasingly angry with Kat as he sees her with Thomas. He is forced to spend time with her when his father dies and wishes to see Kat. Upset, Kat and Shane find comfort with each other. After this, Shane finds himself hopelessly in love with her once more. He sees Kat in passing but it isn’t till she and Thomas party with him does he rekindle any sexual relationship.

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When Thomas dies, Shane blames himself partly for his role on angering Thomas. He is afraid to approach Kat that eventually does when their daughter Darla urges him to. They reconnect eventually and marry once more. Kats death effects Shane but it is needed as Kat needs to be with her soulmate.
Thomas and Shane both embody different characteristics. At one point they are great friends but this friendship is interrupted by their feelings. When Thomas dies, he tells Kat to be with Shane. This marks his respect for Shane and his knowledge that Shane is right for Kat in many ways. She abides by this wish.

Shane is the only man who Thomas is ever jealous of near Kat. He grows furious as the two try to co-parent Darla through late night phone calls.  During a drug-induced encounter, Shane, Thomas, and Kat all become intimate. This is the last time all three are together at peace.

 

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Shane serves as a marker for Kat. He is solid for her and he is her safe spot. He is willing to do anything for her and protects her the best he can. He tries to satisfy her desire but cannot at times. He loves her beyond reason and although many of his friends tell him to stay away from Kat he finds he cannot. Kat has had a long time crush on Shane which we find out about in Spolier*Just a Small Town Girl, the prequel about Kats mother. As a child, Kat enjoyed Arctic Circle and fell for Shane before Thomas. Thinking this childish she dismissed the idea until she met him in person.

Kat also only tells Thomas about her life with her mother and father. A fact which she never confines within Shane. She trusts Thomas with her secrets as well as her hopes and dreams. While Thomas is more dreamy life herself, Shane is more realistic and this marks a crucial difference in the men. To thrive, Kat needs to dream big but she also needs to be brought back to reality.

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Many have suggested that the novel would have worked best had the three had a ménage relationship but then it would have lost its touch I feel. Kat needed Thomas to grow. She needed Shane to mature. Thomas helped her learn to love and Shane helped her learn to forgive and move on.

Both men had their impact on Kat positively and negativity. I have stated my opinion but what do you think? Thomas or Shane?

The Women of “The King’s Secret Daughter”

*Spoilers*

Obviously 

Read here —–> https://www.amazon.com/dp/B06XYVL6T5

 

Women’s roles have changed greatly since the time of Anna and the American Revolution. No longer in the United States nor Great Britain is a woman ruled by her husband. Here we explore the prominent women featured within The King’s Secret Daughter

 

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Our first and foremost character is of course Anna. She’s a rebel at heart who, although tries to remain faithful at first to king and country, follows her heart. She takes her life into her own hands, something quite rare in that time period. Her marriage to John Seymour marks the first time she is given away against her will and married off. She finds some happiness with Thomas Miller briefly. Thomas is a choice for her. She chooses freely to love him and in that action, she discovers the joys of relationships and intimacy without the restraints of marriage. When Thomas dies she is deeply saddened and cannot stomach John. Because of this, she saves the Miller Family and consummates her passion with Nathan. Her relationship with Nathan differs from everyone else in the fact that she loves him but is torn between her duty and heart.

When Anna leaves Nathan and returns to England she experiences the same trappings she did before. This time she is married to Jack Smith. Their relationship is stormy and passionate and Anna finds herself content with it for a while. She fears to return to England for the feeling of entrapment to come back.

Anna, however, takes her life into her own hands and returns to Nathan in South Carolina. Her return marks the end of her struggle between king and country. She chooses to live as Nathan Miller’s wife on Miller plantation where her role has differed greatly. Nathan never tries to suppress her and allows her to be herself.

This is important for Anna because her two arranged marriages ended terribly and she felt surprised.

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Next, we have the strong figure of Jane Miller. Jane is the mother of Nathan, Thomas, and Charlotte. She serves also as a mother figure to Anna in the novel for Anna has never had a positive one before.

Jane advises Anna many times and is also the first to forgive her upon the discovery that Anna is the daughter of the English king. She welcomes Anna both times as a prospective daughter in law with first Thomas and finally Nathan. She does not blame Anna for Thomas death although Anna blames herself, something which will plague her the rest of her life.

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Bea is Anna’s lady-in-waiting the first part of the novel. She is bold and brazen. Bea speaks her mind and Anna loves her for it. Bea is also a sort of mother/older sister figure to Anna. She explains to Anna about the secrets of the bedroom to which Anna is shocked that Bea knows these things as an unmarried woman. Bea has had many love affairs but at the time of the novel is unmarried. It is unknown whether she takes a husband once separated from Anna or not.

The loss of Bea affects Anna greatly as she has lost her best friend and confident.

 

 

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Finally, we have Charlotte Miller. Charlotte is the sister of Nathan and Thomas and the daughter of James and Jane Miller. She is quiet the first half of the book but when Anna meets her again in part three we see a different older Charlotte who is about to be married. Charlotte’s upcoming wedding is the main event of part three and we see the events leading up to it as her husband to be is introduced.

Charlotte serves as a Bea like confident to Anna and the two become fast friends. It is Charlotte who urges Anna to be with Nathan again. Anna does so at charlottes reception when Charlotte tells Nathan to go after Anna which results in Anna and Nathan reuniting and agreeing to marry.
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Honorable mentions include Queen Charlotte, the wife of George III and Hannah Lightfoot, his supposed mistress. Queen Charlotte does not favor Anna and is constantly pregnant. She eventually births fifteen children to her husband. Two who will become king.

Hannah is the supposed mistress of George III and mother of Anna. She is only spoken of and has no voice in the novel. Anna does not speak of her and acts as if she hardly exists.

 

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Each woman of The King’s Secret Daughter carries a unique view towards women of the day. Some are powerless while others hold titles.   Each holds their strength differently and has a story to tell.