Just a Small Town Girl: An awaited prequel due soon.

 

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Read here —–> https://www.amazon.com/Shes-Only-Seventeen-Novel-Drugs-ebook/dp/B01LXTMF8S/ref=tmm_kin_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr=

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I have had many people ask me when I am releasing the prequel to She’s Only Seventeen. Honestly, I have worked on it some and it’s about 99% finished but I’m just working on the extra push to finish it up.

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As with its sequel, Just a Small Town Girl will feature controversial subjects such as heavy drug use and sex. Where it’s sequel focuses on sex as a way to communicate, this novel will feature heavy and graphic drug use. It will show the effects of constant drug use and how dangerous it can be. We have rock stars from the sixties and seventies so adultery is present also.

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Within this novel, we meet Pete and Charlotte Crowne who are only mentioned in the sequel as being Kat’s parents. They are both dead before 1980 when the novel begins with Kat at thirteen.

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Pete is your typical bad boy and Charlotte a small town girl. Hence the title. Pete’s in a band and he is a drummer and Charlotte is a good old church girl. They fall in love and Charlotte marries Pete and moves with him and becomes a rock star’s wife. Pretty typical right? Wrong.

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Charlotte’s a tough Mississippi girl who finds herself in the big Apple. She makes friends and enemies as she observes her husband and his band mates get high. Charlotte does not condone drug use but she finds a friend eventually although brief.

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We know from the sequel that Pete commits suicide but what gets him to this point? We also know that Charlotte kills herself right before the events of She’s Only Seventeen.  Five years after Pete so many unanswered questions.

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I’m hoping to release the novel in November so keep an eye out. Cover art has already been released and will post links as soon as it does go on sale.

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Thomas V.S. Shane  (From “She’s Only Seventeen”

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In my novel She’s Only Seventeen, Kat Crowne is loved by two very different men. Who rule her choices throughout the novel. Although she dates others and cares for them, only Shane and Thomas are the ones who make the largest mark. In this segment, we will discuss and analyze the differences and similarities between the two men and why each was right for Kat.

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Thomas is introduced first so let’s start with him. He is described as a rebel when Kat first meets him and she instantly finds him attractive with his piercing blue eyes and ebony hair. Thomas plays guitar and it is his only comfort at the boarding school till he meets Kat. He is an orphan but was left with money from his late parents which he uses to begin Neptune. Thomas convinces Kat to join the band and she does. It is then that he begins to fall in love with her.

Soon the band grows and Neptune is invited to tour with Arctic Circle. Before they go on tour, Thomas and Kat sleep together for the first time because they are embarrassed they are both virgins heading on tour. This marks the beginning of their lifelong struggle of passion for one another. Kat begins to date Drew,  but she soon finds herself without him after the tour. She moves onto Gary and then James as a jealous Thomas observes her. When they go back on tour with Arctic Circle, Kat gets back together with Drew. It is then that she sleeps with Thomas again.

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Kat and Drew break up and she is with Shane. During this time she realizes she loves Thomas but is pregnant by Shane. She married him, ending her relations with Thomas. As Kat and Shane’s relationship falls apart, Thomas and Kat grow closer. Shane and Kat divorce as Thomas and Kat begin an affair with her new boyfriend Brian’s back. Soon it comes to a climax and Kat agrees finally to be with only Thomas.

 This is all well and good until Kat sleeps with Shane. Thomas forgives her but grows increasingly frustrated with her and jealous of Shane. Thomas wants to marry Kat but she refuses. On the night of his death, he plans to ask her one more time but doesn’t get the chance. He does, however, marry her in the hospital. Thomas dies that night leaving Kat a widow. She is upset beyond repair and starves herself. Her love for Thomas is stronger than anyone else in the book and she is never the same afterward.

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Thomas is Kats opposite in many ways yet they are so very much alike. He serves as her soulmate and although she doesn’t realize it till it is too late, she never forgets him. Thomas proves to be almost obsessive towards her at times while at others he can drop her like a fly and not speak with her for months at a time. He stands a firm ground against her and challenges her in ways she hates. The pair compliment each other well as they both have a high sex drive. Thomas can control Kats drug and alcohol use but also will play along with her when she feels frisky and adventurous.

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Shane’s character differs very much from Thomas. Shane is part of Arctic Circle and close to ten years older than Kat. He falls hopelessly in love with her on their second tour together and married her. He knows about her and Thomas and tries to end things but decided against it when he finds Kat is pregnant. Their relationship never recovers after Kat cheats on him with Drew and becomes pregnant. They are all unsure if she is pregnant by Drew or Shane. Shane accused Kat of cheating on him with Brian and they divorce. It is then he finds out that the baby was his causing him to reconnect with her briefly after the divorce but then Kat dates Thomas.

Shane grows increasingly angry with Kat as he sees her with Thomas. He is forced to spend time with her when his father dies and wishes to see Kat. Upset, Kat and Shane find comfort with each other. After this, Shane finds himself hopelessly in love with her once more. He sees Kat in passing but it isn’t till she and Thomas party with him does he rekindle any sexual relationship.

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When Thomas dies, Shane blames himself partly for his role on angering Thomas. He is afraid to approach Kat that eventually does when their daughter Darla urges him to. They reconnect eventually and marry once more. Kats death effects Shane but it is needed as Kat needs to be with her soulmate.
Thomas and Shane both embody different characteristics. At one point they are great friends but this friendship is interrupted by their feelings. When Thomas dies, he tells Kat to be with Shane. This marks his respect for Shane and his knowledge that Shane is right for Kat in many ways. She abides by this wish.

Shane is the only man who Thomas is ever jealous of near Kat. He grows furious as the two try to co-parent Darla through late night phone calls.  During a drug-induced encounter, Shane, Thomas, and Kat all become intimate. This is the last time all three are together at peace.

 

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Shane serves as a marker for Kat. He is solid for her and he is her safe spot. He is willing to do anything for her and protects her the best he can. He tries to satisfy her desire but cannot at times. He loves her beyond reason and although many of his friends tell him to stay away from Kat he finds he cannot. Kat has had a long time crush on Shane which we find out about in Spolier*Just a Small Town Girl, the prequel about Kats mother. As a child, Kat enjoyed Arctic Circle and fell for Shane before Thomas. Thinking this childish she dismissed the idea until she met him in person.

Kat also only tells Thomas about her life with her mother and father. A fact which she never confines within Shane. She trusts Thomas with her secrets as well as her hopes and dreams. While Thomas is more dreamy life herself, Shane is more realistic and this marks a crucial difference in the men. To thrive, Kat needs to dream big but she also needs to be brought back to reality.

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Many have suggested that the novel would have worked best had the three had a ménage relationship but then it would have lost its touch I feel. Kat needed Thomas to grow. She needed Shane to mature. Thomas helped her learn to love and Shane helped her learn to forgive and move on.

Both men had their impact on Kat positively and negativity. I have stated my opinion but what do you think? Thomas or Shane?

Sex Through The Centuries. 

Sex.

Teens giggle while children look around in confusion as adults blush. How did such a natural act become so taboo? As a child, everything I learned about sex was from the school bus, my friends, or experimentation. My family never spoke of it. This proves true for many people, but why have we become so conservative towards the act of reproduction?

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To investigate this, we must go back to the beginning. Starting with the earliest humans, sex was purely animalistic. Our instincts simply kicked in and we mated. Simply. No shame.

As we came into the time of Egypt and Rome we still see sex as something which fills everyday life without shame. Pompeii was full of it. Murals and other scenes of pornography filled the city. In Egypt equally, scenes filled tombs and temples alike. The Egyptians were certainly not shy about sex and in fact, pharohs kept harems of women,  including their mothers, sisters, and daughters within them. (Disclaimer, totally not supporting incest, just using as an example ) Cleopatra was notoriously open with her sexuality first with Caesar then Antony. She married two of her brothers but it is unknown whether she had relations with them. Back to Rome… the emperors were notorious for their sexual escapades. They were open with them and men and women alike held lovers of all stations.

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This also brings me to the subject of homosexuality and how it is also considered taboo in today’s society. We have lightened up a bit on it but it is not fully accepted as it was during the days of the Romans or Egyptians. Personally, I think it should be!

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Moving forward, we get to England and it’s reign as master of the world. England shunned sex and kept it hush hush. Although it was common for men to have mistresses, women lost their power and if accused of adultery could be out to death. We see Henry VIII who put Anne Boleyn to death for rumors and Catherine Howard for the same crime with solid evidence.

Long before Henry, came Edward II who had big shoes to fill. He stands between his father and son, two great king’s of England, yet Edward was a weakling. He was easily overpowered by his scorned queen, Isabella. Edward was a homosexual and although fathered four children with his wife, eventually took another male lover, causing her to begin an affair with Roger Mortimer and cause and uprising. Eventually, Edward was killed and Mortimer was defeated and killed. Isabella was imprisoned by her son, Edward III for the remainder of her life.

Onto Mughal India where sex was… complicated….

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Kama Sutra… the book of love. A common book for those who studied the art or even married couples. Much was expected from a woman in the royal bedchamber and if you could catch the emperor then you would rise. Emperor Jahangir fell in love with Nur Jahan and made her the most powerful woman in India. Jahangir’s son would have to deal with her well into his reign but like his father also fell deeply for a woman. Shan Jahan fell in love with Mumtaz Mahal who was of relation to Nur Jahan. He was unable to marry her at first and took another wife but soon had his way. He quickly shunned his other wives after giving them a child each and focused all his attention on Mumtaz. Detailed court documents of their sexual passion are available and well exposed. It resulted in her giving birth to 14 children and unfortunately for Mumtaz, she died birthing their fourteenth. The Taj Mahal symbolizes their love where they have both been interred for eternity.

Don’t even get me started on China…

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As one of the largest empires, Chinese rulers would have concubines… a ton of them. Girls were selected from noble families because hey, only the best for the Emporer. These girls would sit in the halls of women and wait to be chosen. many would grow old and never get a night with their king. Once the emperor died, the women would have their heads shaved and be set to a nunnery equivalent. Some concubines like Ci-Xi and Wu Zhao rose up to become empress because they birthed the next emperor.

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England after the restoration exploded with sex. Charles II had many acknowledged mistresses and bastards. Although he had no legitimate children, he did not shun his wife Catherine. The king was described as lusty and highly sexual. Also during this time, many views of the woman changed. Women took lovers and were allowed on the stage, baring their legs as actresses. Nell Gwynn never married, yet she had lovers including Charles. Many families threw their daughters to the king with hopes of advancement and many would be educated on just how to please the king within the bedchamber.

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Moving forward to George III. It was said he had a mistress, Hannah Lightfoot and then fell in love with Sarah Lennox but once George Married Charlotte, we see a more conservative king. After his marriage, he proves to be a very devoted husband and father. His son, on the other hand, George IV disposed his wife and took many mistresses, even dubbing one his true wife. During this period, women were expected to be virgins and not take lovers.

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Victorian England explored the reign of courtesans and free love such as in France. Victoria’s son Edward was a great lover of women and did not shy around it.

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After Edward, we get more into the 20th century where marriage stayed between a man and woman and sex began to be hushed.

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When the 60s and 70s came the idea of free love came back and for a brief period, some people brought sex back into the spotlight. In the 80s we get pornography wisely distributed. Music videos with scantly clothed women. As we approach our century we see porn taking over everywhere. It’s highly distributed and has taken the place of many stable relationships. I was in a relationship with a porn addict once and trust me when I say this is one thing where it can ruin relationships.

Continuing on. Sex will probably never be as open and free as it was once yet we continue to live on. Babies are being constructed within Petrie dishes while parents pick out eye color rather than just do the act itself and get what you’re given. Society and technology have definitely changed the way we view sex and our sexuality.

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I have gotten mixed reviews about the sex within The King’s Secret Daughter. Anna sleeps with a man before marriage and develops a relationship. This could be normal for the time period but to know the whole story you’d have to read the book. She is at one point shunned by her second husband and finds comfort with another man and the man is punished.

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Within She’s Only Seventeen, we explore human sexuality at its finest. Kat loses her virginity at the tender age of fifteen and after that, she uses sex as a way to express herself and on some occasions, show or mask deep emotions. Kat commits adultery on more than one occasion but since the story takes places from 1980-2001, it is fealty with differently.

In conclusion, sexuality is suppressed in many ways in this society. I have vowed that my daughter will not be uneducated and I trust myself to remain calm when she comes to me with questions. I do not want her to see it as something to be ashamed of. I most certainly am not and I suppose my openness is one of the reasons for my happy marriage.

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This is definitely one of those subjects I could go on forever about so I will stop here. As always, I am welcome to discussions.

The King’s Secret Daughter Sequel Preview!

SPOILERS AHEAD!!

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If you have not read The King’s Secret Daughter please do not scroll down.

Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B06XYVL6T5

 

April 1783

Arthur Greene stood on the deck of the Century with his crewmates surrounded by Frenchman. He feared the worse as Captain La’Verge brought Jack Smith with him into the sunlight.

Earlier that day, Arthur had gotten a chance to speak with Jack:

 

“Where did she go?’ Jack asked as he inquired to Arthur about the whereabouts of his wife, Anna.

Arthur had watched helplessly as La’Verge had given Anna money and sent her on her way in a dingy towards a land mass off of the Colonies.

“The Colonies,” Arthur stated in a low voice as Jack’s eyes glanced up at him from his position on the ground.

Jack gave a small laugh, “She’s running away,” he said.

Arthur nodded, “Well she cannot return to England now,” as he informed jack of the obvious.

Jack sighed, “They mean to kill me, I’ve overheard it all.”

Arthur felt a pit form in his stomach at the thought of his old friend being put to death. “It’s her fault,” Arthur growled, “It’s all her fault.”

“I want you to find her,” Jack stated in a clear voice, “and when you do, I want you to make her pay for what she has done.”

Arthur thought for a moment on the proposition, make her pay? Did Jack want him to kill Anna?

“How?” Arthur asked Jack.

“You’ll think of something, I’m sure,” Jack answered as he went to shake a sandy strand out of his eyes.

 

Arthur gave a little sigh at the thought of Jack’s last words to him. He began to watch in horror as La’Verge barked at two men to hold Jack still. As the men did so, La’Verge pulled out a knife which he waved in front of Jack’s eyes.

Jack’s face fell with an emotion which Arthur could not describe.

It was over within second as a gurgling sound filled the sir, then silence. No one dared to protest.

La’Verge turned to Arthur and the rest of the crew as he smirked triumphantly towards them, his victory now complete

 

Due out the end of 2017!

I’m An Author… self dubbed of course…

I have been fortunate to have published two books… two very different books…

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The first…..

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It was a contemporary romance/ erotica titled “She’s Only Seventeen” Perhaps a terrible title but I don’t know, it fit at the time. Maybe I will revamp it someday…. In truth, I don’t know what category to put it in. It features a rock and roll metal singer from the eighties. Her name is Kat Crowne and she’s pretty much crazy. Okay, well there are many reasons for her craziness. Her parents were addicts and both killed themselves. Her father was a famous musician and her mother struggled to balance it all.

Anyways, Kat meets up with Thomas and they form Neptune. Together, they go on tour with the rest of the band and join up with other famous bands such as Arctic Circle. (All fictional of course) Kat gains boyfriends and eventually marries but her love life is a disaster… a trainwreck.

The novel features her many “escapades” and how it affects those around her. Some happy, some sad. Definitely not a book for the weakhearted.

One of my favorite excerpts:

“I thought you’d be happy for me,” I tried to explain.

He shrugged.

“But you’re not…” I said slowly

“Not really, Kat, no.”

“Why?”

“Cause,” he let out a breath, “I guess I just thought maybe…”

“That we would end up together?” I answered for him. “You said…”

He stopped me, “It’s okay, Kat though, I get it. And, maybe… just maybe you’ll feel this way when I get married and have kids too.”

My eyes widened, he noticed.

“What? You don’t think I’ll ever get married and have kids? Cause I would like to someday with someone. Obviously not you…”

I turned away from him before he could read my face.

“Look at me, Kat,” he said as he grabbed my wrists as I tried to cover my face, forcing them to my sides, my face close to his and my eyes full of unwanted tears.

“Please stop,” I sobbed.

“Tell me you don’t want me to, it’s what you’re thinking. You don’t want me to be with anyone else but you, the thought of it is visibly upsetting you so…”

My voice squeaked as I tried to respond, “Tom…”

“Am I right?” He asked in a low whisper.

I shut my eyes tight for a moment, and then opened them as I shook my head ‘yes’.

“God damn it, Kat, don’t do this to me, not right now,” he breathed out.

“If I could do it any other way,” I said, tears flowing down my face now, as I prayed no one would come onto the kitchen to view our mess.

“You’d do what?” he murmured, “Hmmm?”

“I’d…I’d…”

“Tell me,” he said softly, his face inches from mine.

“I’d be with you, you know I would. I love you, I always have,” the words escaping my lips before I could think upon them.

“Jesus Christ, Kat,” his lips met mine with a sudden rush of ecstasy. His arms came around me as he moved in rhythm with me, his body pushing me against the sink.

This scene is my favorite for two reasons:

  1. Kat and Thomas… total ship throughout the novel and here they are… finally making a move…
  2. The sexual tension between these two… purr…

Kindle link if interested: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01LXTMF8S

 

The second…

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My second novel is a historical fiction/romance called “The King’s Secret Daughter. It is set during the American Revolution and features Anna, the illegitimate daughter of George III of England and  Hannah Lightfoot. She makes her way to the Colonies and there she finds trouble and romance…

Anna is by far the most fun I have ever had with a character. She is married off and pretty much has no one to tell her what to expect. Her husband rules her, yet when she is given an ounce of freedom, she finds romance for herself and learns what it is truly like to be loved for herself.

One of my favorites excerpts from this novel:

She did not understand fully what had come over her, but she wanted him. Perhaps it had always been there, her desire for him. That one kiss which they had shared seemed so long ago, yet it had indeed awakened something within her which only Nathan knew how to extinguish. It was as if he knew her, the innermost thoughts and wanting were no longer her own, but shared with one whose desires were the same. Unspoken words lay between them as her mind raced.

Nate tilted his head so it was inches from hers. His light eyes bore into her. In the darkness, he found her hand and pulled it to his lips.

“Do you want me to go?” He asked.

“No,” she responded softly.

Nathan gave a short chuckle that was quickly extinguished when his lips found hers again. She felt tears prick her eyes as he merged with her once more, the pleasure he had managed to bring her, beyond words.

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This scene always gives me goosebumps because it is literally the first time that these characters are together in this sense. Anna finally knows what it is like to be loved by a man who completely and utterly possesses her without feeling as if he owns her by marriage.

Kindle link if interested: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B06XYVL6T5

 

 

All in all, I have considered giving up writing many times. I’ve had some terrible reviews and I even once uploaded the wrong file causing someone to say my spelling and grammar was terrible.

Yes, tears were shed…

Fortunately, it was fixed, yet the review remains.

Yesterday I felt quite crestfallen and to my surprise, I received an email from my favorite professor who is retiring from my college. He told me that my senior thesis still remains one of the best he has ever received.

Honestly, that meant more to me than any positive review on any of my novels because I literally put my soul into that thing.

I have decided to continue writing. My style is not for everyone, but there are people out there who will enjoy it as much as I do.